Blue is not Blue after all...

Yes.....its already 525pm...and yes... i am still in school.....
I am satisfied that i have just completed my very first assignment for this semester.....as to how i fare on tat assignment..only God know....but i guess that's the best that i can do....

NOw....i really feel better...as if an enormous weight has been lifted off me..there are of course other little weights still on me....but i feel a little lighter..now tat this is over!!

Other important tasks tat needs my action:

1. Planning for my observation lesson (**this week!!) ..left tomorrow....??

2. Making changes to the level Science Test paper (**need to send for printing , by this week!!)

3. Planning for a more "exciting" Brownie session (**this wed)

4. Clearing up my markings....**tons of it..!!

5. Need to move a lil bit faster on content teaching...am a lil bit way behind as compared to the rest.....**sob..sob...

I guess...these are things i need to complete by THIS WEEK!!! AARGGH.....

Work under Pressure....no wonder i am still here....stuck at my work station......

OOpps..I broke my promise to Hariz again....told him i be back by 5pm....poor darling!!!

Can someone out there create an invention....to ease the workload of a teacher?

or anyone...give me an antidote....?

MONDAY BLUE????

AAArrgghhh!!! Finally class is over!!! I guess today is the day when everything went almost wrong....I am really feeling terrible and lousy today though i dressed up to the nine..to school ...today hoping tat my monday will not be blue...and yet....it still turns BLUE!!!

Today is the temperature taking exercise....and guess wat!! My kids , about 7 of them...forgot to brig their thermometer....even after repeated reminders!! i wonder what happen to their memory.....? Oh my...wat an embarassement when my P made the kids stand in the hall for not bringing their thermometer....so wat it effect that has on me??

Definitely BIG time!! It does not reflect well as a form teacher then!! It place me at a bad lite..**sob...**sob...

That's not all....
I went for my Social Studies' class ....and the kids are supposed to do their project presentation...
and u know wat...THEY LITERALLY FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT!!! i was hopping mad!!!
My blood boils looking at them ...looking at me sheepishly ....and they dare to smile back.......

I was so flustered that i ended up raising at the top of my voice....oh my....wat a way.!!!!
I just could not help it....Oh God!! Give me the strength to continue this passion of mine..
that somehow kind of getting deteriorated........

After that.. i thought....all right ..think positive....it's not bad after all....comforting myself.....
alas.....during Lab lesson.....My PC was not working!!! there goes my lab lesson......another waste of time.....

Return back to class...with about 1 and 1/2 hour before dismissal....I only managed to teach them on measuring angles.....i was a bit disappointed that they still could not understand how to measure them....i guess it's kind of pretty confusing....i guess i need to give them more practise..
but at times....I am left with no choice cause....I am really behind schedule....!!

I felt guilty for not even teaching English at all today

A WeekN...AWhile....

***Burp....Alhamdulillah.....Mum's chicken rice is as best as always!! There comes another end of the weekend.....today my Yoga session is the most challenging of all the previous sessions...

Usually, I am able to keep up with my trainer...with the postures and positions introduced...somehow today she introduced a different posture whereby after lying down and putting my legs to my chest and hugging them with my arms.....i was told to rock myself from front to back ....slowly and slowly till i got the momentum...and when the rockings gets more vigorous....i gotta rock myself to sitting position.. and this one oops..gotta pen off..Hariz is throwing tantrums!!!!

oooh....finally...my poor lil Hariz just got his power nap....reflecting back...Hariz has been on the PC since noon and it has been 3hrs!!! so tat explains his tantrums cause i did not allow him to work on it anymore........i do not wanna groom a pc addict child...at the end of the day.

Seriously, it's not easy raising up a child, a son...all on ur own...single-handedly...but fortunately alhamdulillah....God blessed me with an understanding and supportive family: my parents , sis and brother....they are the ones who help me in raising Hariz....hopefully INsyAllah...to be a better and useful person when he grows up....

Anyway....putting that aside...my mind is filled with this "finish up ur Fathers and Sons...." before the time is up....hahaha.....
I have yet to start from where i last stop on my tma...I am proud that i have completed half of the essay covering Jane Austen's story but i am still stuck with Ivan Turgenev...cause..

I HAVE NOT READ THAT STORY!!! and MY TMA IS DUE THIS MONDAY!!!!

but alhamdullillah...i got the spark notes...heheh....a short cut..wat to do...when u live in a rat-race time packed society....

All rite..before i sign off......let me tell myself....."TOMORROW IS GONNA BE A BETTER DAY THAN TODAY!!! BE POSITIVE LINA.....WATEVER..SETBACKS TAT COMES..IS GOD'S TEST ON YOUR LEVEL OF ENDURANCE.....AND PATIENCE....REMEMBER LINA...GOD IS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU....."

HAPPY THINKING DAY!!

Oh..finally it's almost over!! It was a real nightmare thinking about this event...esp in school..
sometimes its hard to satisfy everyone....

anyway...wat's important is my girls had fun celebrating this event! I read the message for them and they renew their promise...

The best part is the 'makan session' at the end of the day. Since i have not eaten since early morn, this part was a real welcome...

We sang the Thinking Day song and truly it was a time well-spent..My girls are now manning the booth down at the school foyer...very excited and proud to show everyone that they belong to one club- The Brownies..

As for me....though tired...it was a worthwhile....since i love this challenge and pressure to keep me going for the day....talking abt this...in a hour's time....i will be the coach for my Green House sport practise later.

Me?? The coach? I could not believe it....Do you?

Start of School...after the Mid week HOliday

Chinese New Year hols is over!! Hmm...sometimes whatever i plan...does not turn out wat's it supposed to be...i guess...we plan...n God decides!!

Yesterday was the first time in my existence on this earth....i actually stayed out from home...away from my lil Hariz...but not for having fun and all.....but
purely for the sake of completing my TMA!!!!

I have not finished reading the realist novel: Pride & Prejudice...so...to cut it short...I stayed over at Sue's house,....to watch the movie instead of reading the book..!! Loved it so much...in fact am touched with the characters in the story..but seriously how real was it in real life as reel life?

Anyway...did some discussion at her house....and relieved that at least some things are done....cause submission for my TMA will be next week on Monday!!!! Gosh...I have yet to read another of its book, Fathers and Sons by Ivan Turgenev....

Seriously...I kinda wonder...the numerous work load tat I have to learn to juggle and balance, my school work load, my part-time studies and on top of that spending quality time with lil Hariz...and also my own personal time.....for personal growth..!!

Rite now, i am quite overwhelmed with school stuff, cause lots of deadline are coming!!
First, planning and celebrating Thinking Day in school tomorrow....
Second, finishing up my Science Diagnostic Test
Third, planning for lesson observation ideas
Fourth, finishin up my El and Ma syllabus which sad to say...am behind the SOW...
Fifth, finishing up my markings and other admin stuff!!!!

Oh Ya Allah!! I know you are testing me!! I am praying for strength and health so that I can complete my job as a teacher to the best of my ability....

Give me strength .....................
Today, as usual, I am staying up late in school again......Poor lil Hariz...

Happy Thinking Day to all those in Guiding..!!!!

2nd Day of My Midweek HOliday

I am awokened by a message by Hariz Dad that goes this way: "Sorry for not being able to fetch Hariz yesterday and I would appreciate if I can fetch him today."

I was feeling mad at his attitude towards his son...who actually waited to go out with him yesterday but was stood up yet again..**luckily I did not tell Hariz about him dressing up yesterday. I was thinking this cant go on forever...

Thus I replied,'Next time do have the courtesy to inform on the very day should you not be able to deliver what you have promised your son.' I felt better....somehow...

Anyway...I have made plans to go out with my son....and I cant possibly cancel mine just to accomodate to his whims....

All rite...my plan for today:

1. Go to East Coast beach...have fun cycling if the kiosk is open...then just chill out there and spend real quality time..with my son..
2. Drop by at East Coast Parkway and shop around....if there are shops opened...

Apart from this, yesterday i happened to read an article on Life! about this latest bike by Piaggio, model Piaggio MP3. Somehow like its unique design....just wondering whether its here in the local market....if it is ..thot of dropping by to see how its like in real life....and if it is ok..i guess perhaps that is anothe option to think of apart from Kelisa....

Dad said..."this woman cant stick to her decision....dont be surprised ...she will change her mind yet again.." to Mum...

I know....but this is yet another big decision i need to make in my life after my First Big Decision I made last Year....i do not want to end up regretting it if i dont listen to my heart...

I am glad that up till today...i have never regretted my decisions that i have made...irregardless whether they turn out fine or otherwise....cause those decisions or life's choices that i have chosen comes straight from my heart..if it turns out fine....GREAT!! if not....learn the hard way!

Hmm..i can smell mum's nasi lemak for now....and its calling.....so sign off for now from here...

Lunar New Year.....wat abt me?

Today is the first day where the midweek holiday starts actually....i guess its a period for me to really de-stress myself....but how to? i wonder ....

Apart from lazing myself at home..and pigging out....hmmm...i was thinking wat else should i do to occupy these hours that crawl...

Hariz is soon going out ....having fun with his dad, hope so..this time round...and..again...I am left alone...so...i must have my own masterplan....

Again...here are my options:

1. Sleep , eat, watch tv...MTV or any nice cable movies...surfing online...INDOOR acts..just being a couch potato...
2. Working hard doing work stuff **on hols!!?? like: marking, planning of lessons..and observation and test papers...and other craps...
3. Reading up my backdated readings as expected by SIM work schedule ....
I am still stuck halfway with 'Pride & Prejudice'....when now it's already with 'Fathers &
Sons'..
4. Get out of the house and just be a wanderer....shopping? strolling? just out....

So....
I guess.....all options look fine....and now...i am doing the first one....maybe later..evening ...will try to do option 4 integrated with 3...
modification: bring my 'Pride & Prejudice' and focus on finishing it by today ...but at the beach...perhaps....

Option 2....will come maybe later..when the spirit is there....Ok...Get on Task!!

KELISA ---- A CAR OF CHOICE

I have made some check on some kelisa designs...actually love the art series..but think of it again..not worth to fork out $6500 more for tat...

might as well get the normal kelisa ..then spend some $$ to do my own modification..like the one here...the modified one..and it looks COOL!!!

MY project for now: HUNTING AROUND FOR INSPIRATION TO HAVE MY OWN KELISA DESIGN......anyone?

http://kelisasg.blogspot.com/

At Another CrossRoad..

This Chinese New Year Holiday is a real good time....to think about my latest dilemma....wat else is in my mind now? It has got nothing to do with the affairs of the heart....cause that has long been placed somewhere in the shelf of my heart....i guess collecting dust...

It's about My Mazda121...to hold on or to let go...esp when COE drops this week to $5200.
so far the lowest ....since i last start to monitor...
The strong point to decide now..is which car to replace?

So ....let's trace back to the heydays...the first time when i bought this car:
Main Reason : As a form of convenience so tat i can ferry my other half to my mum's house ...
But..circumstance has changed....i am staying with mum now...so ...my first main reason does not stand now...

So...at times while driving to school...i kinda of wonder...tat how cost effective it is since..this car is now used to bring me to and fro to my work place cum school....to SIm....and weekend spin.
Is it worth to spend my $$ on this? knowing tat this is a COE car...definitely it eats $$ more...than a brand new car..

So after much thinking...I thot of the following:
Option A: Sell off the car and grab an auto bike...
Option B: Sell off the car and grab a much cheaper car....

After another much thinking.....i guess Option B is the better option...
Reasons:
1. I have long not ride a bike....so i guess my riding skill SUCKS!!!
2. If i use a bike...i cant go out with my little hariz using private transport but public...i hate the system...

So...Option B...is the chosen choice!!

Now a cheaper car...wats on the market?
I have test drive the following: Kia Picanto, Chevrolet Spark and Kelisa...
Verdict: Kia.. exterior not bad..but pick up..sucks..
Chev...love the exterior but pick up....not tat great
Kelisa... hmm..exterior can be improved...driving performance..amazingly better
than expected!!